June 2013
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My anxiety is going to be the death of me. It’s frustrating to lose sleep over things that are absolutely out of my control, that I shouldn’t be worrying about in the first place. Finding Fiona dead in March has had a lasting effect. It’s never more evident than nights like this where I wake up and my sleep fogged mind tells me that Grim or Phantom are dead. My heart jumps in my throat and I find myself slamming down on the bed next to them or shaking them to get a reaction. The poor animals just look at me like I’m insane and I feel like an idiot. I completely lose my head over all of this. I think (far too often) about when they won’t be here with me anymore and it sends me into even more panic. I don’t want to worry about this all the time. They are still young and should have long, happy, and healthy lives ahead of them. The thought creeps in and stays there. It doesn’t help that Fiona wasn’t old, she should have had a long life ahead of her, as well. She should never have died. She was fine when I left for work… She was fine when Brian left for work. She looked like she was sleeping until I realized she wasn’t breathing and her eyes were slightly open. I think that’s another thing that makes me worry about the animals, she looked peaceful and alive. Well, now that I’ve gotten this off my chest, I’m going to try my hand at sleeping again. Goodnight and sorry for the pathetic rant.
May 2013
41 posts
One day we’ll be in a Marvel movie, sitting there as something doesn’t feel right. and as the credits start to roll we’ll know what it is. It will flash up on screen and our hearts will break. “In loving memory of Stan Lee”. There was no cameo in that movie. And there never will be again.
are you satan
its ok. I didn’t need my heart.
:( why?
“The saddest part about betrayal is it never comes from one of your enemies.”
—(via black-laces)
For fucking real?
Now you’re going to try to say our dad abused you when we were children?! Bitch, I wish he would have. Maybe you wouldn’t be such a pathetic excuse for a human if he could have knocked some sense into you. You want to see abuse, I’ll show you some. You may be my blood but you are no sister to me. I will show you the fury inside of me when you mess with my parents, but especially my dad. You deserve whatever is coming your way.
"Family"
You are the absolute worst piece of shit I’ve ever met. You’ve grown steadily more selfish and irresponsible the older you get, which is the opposite of what’s supposed to happen if you hadn’t noticed. I don’t have to explain myself to you or the fact that I talked to your greasy haired dirtbag of a boyfriend’s ex to find out if he had a history of stealing. Funny thing is that he does and you still blatantly ignore it. You’re naive, but more than that you’re just desperate for someone to love you. You can’t even handle being alone with you, how do you expect others to? If you honestly think I need to report my every action to you, you’ve got another thing coming, sweetheart. You attacking me through text because you’re pissed that I talked to her is bullshit. It’s laughable to think you both think the members of our family are stupid enough to believe that half cocked story he came up with and you go along with it because you always choose your bed mates over your family, no matter how new they are. You’re a sad excuse for anything. You’re a used up, alcoholic, drug addicted bitch who can’t be held accountable for her own life. You treat our family like shit, you treat our PARENTS like shit but as soon as you need something you come crawling back, sweet as pie but once you’re not satisfied you’re back to the bitch you are. I know how to use my brain but I also haven’t drank mine away so you probably have less to deal with. I’m glad our parents can trust my man where they can neither trust you or yours. I know him well enough to know he wouldn’t take advantage of our parents but I also would investigate if our parents had any reason to suspect that. I hope, when you see the evidence of how shitty of a boy you picked out (again) that you realize that you aren’t a good judge of character like you claim to be and that your trust of someone came at the expense of our parents. You can spend your life feeling sorry for yourself because, lord knows, we don’t. You’ve brought on everything you’re getting right now. Look back and realize that you’ve gone from one loser boy to another and you just keep downgrading but instead of standing with your family when they had concerns, you cussed at our dad and sided with your jobless bum of a man. You shouldn’t be proud that you’re the easy girl that doesn’t need any work to lay with because anything that’s easy isn’t worth it. Also, you picked a real winner. Besides the fact that he stole from our parents, he also cheated on his girlfriend with you and then left her for you. Don’t be shocked when he does it to you. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Some people create their own storms then get angry when it rains.
“Sometimes you read a book so special that you want to carry it around with you for months after you’ve finished just to stay near it.”
—Markus Zusak (via helloadreana)
"That one can love another of the same gender, that is what the homophobe really cannot stand."
- Stephen Fry
“I spoke to this man who was really quite extraordinary, called Rod Harvey. He’d been a commander in the Royal Navy… And he was charming, splendid; a promising officer. He developed this condition and became very, very bad and he had to leave the navy and he couldn’t hold down a job. At one point he was in a hospital, where he was looked after, his depression was so black, he got up - was supposed to have some sort of security - and he walked in front of a lorry. And he smashed both his legs. Now, he’s the first to say how could I do that to the lorry driver, for one thing, it’s terrible. And he showed me his legs, he can walk, the number of times they had to re-brake them, set in metal. I said, “The agony of both your legs!” You could see the scars on his legs.. [And he said] “Do you want to know something? It was nothing like as terrible, as the pain that made me stand in front of that lorry.” And that’s the thing you have to understand, with that kind of depression. It’s not “OH, just snap out of it, yano. Thing’s will get better! Look on the bright side.” It is an illness. It is a real physical descent of something quite terrible into people’s minds.”
—Stephen Fry on Manic Depression (via sadexistences)
fyi ‘wow u must be on your period’ is the most misogynistic reply to a debate that i have ever fucking heard in my fucking life and believe me one of us is gonna be bleeding and it aint gonna be me
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